I need a moment

Since I can't talk or text you I'm writing something on here that you probably won't see:

I don't understand what I'm supposed to do. I feel like everyone's where they need to be at but me at times. I just don't get it. I don't even know what to do about this thing anymore. How are things supposed to get better if we don't communicate our feelings? I may not understand everything you're going through, but I just feel like as your girlfriend I'm here to make you feel better. I'm here to let you vent. Even when things are rougb between us, the least I could do is let you blow some steam off rather than suppressing everything. I have to guess at how you feel and pray you're feeling fine. We're already 425+ miles away from each other. You have more than enough space to yourself. When you don't want to talk, what do you do? Don't call or text. When you don't want to see me what do you do? Not a damn thing because I'm nowhere near you anyway. You have all this space and time. I call every other day to check on you because I want to make sure you're feeling ok and because I miss you. I get that you're confused. I really do. But the one thing thag shouldn't be an issue for you is space and me not giving you a proper break. You call and text me just as much as I call and text you. If you want a real break then just break up with me. Screw what anyone else is telling you about there being so many other girls up there for you or whatever they tell you. I'm guessing that's not your thing because you haven't acted on it which is fine.  It's clear you want to be with me, you've even told me yourself. I don't know maybe I'm just having a moment. I want you to know how I feel. I want you to know everything. But karma is a bitch and she's sittin real cozy beside me right now. I want things to be ok. I just don't know what to do to get your mind away from that situation. Maybe it's just time. Time heals all wounds. It's been a little over a month since this happened. You clearly need more time. Well that's fine, but don't expect me to just leave you alone. I love you way too much to do that. And I will continue to fight for you. Even when I'm upset or pissed off like now. No matter what you better believe I'm not going anywhere. I know you're the one and even if I have to vent every weekend about this on here until things are fine, then so be it.